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are a wee bit woobly.
ugg, hold on..
your fingers are curled,
as if they are grasping
something in front of you
but there's nothing to hold
so you curl them around
your forehead instead.
your big throbbing forehead
throbbing... and empty.
. no thoughts.
head swimmy . .
..your head is definitely
swimming right now.
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breaststroke.. .
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the situation?
look around and
take inventory.
hm
hmm
.hmmm, it's much ....
darker than you were expecting
no,
hold on..
are your eyelids even open?
ahh
you are
blinking blearily, yes
okay.
maybe. it's....
uh .. . .
maybe it's morning, right?
...isn't it just like your brain
to tag in john c bladder
for a chokeslam wake-up call
before earlybirds can even
clock in for their shift
in the pecking order.
haha, right bladder?
i said
right, bladder?
..bladder? entering your heel phase so soon?
.. you're not leaving me high and dry, are you?
no reply.
for better or worse,
your body's sense of
"midnight potty humor"
doesn't seem to be
responsible for this
untimely alertness...
untimely, yes.
it's too damn early
..surely, surely
it's just godawful o'clock.
..
....
clock.
..
. . .
..huh.
no chunky red digits poke stoogeishly into your tender, bleary corneas from across the bedroom
no alarm is tugging insistently at the corners of your ears to remind you that time flies,
daring you to weakly swat it away as it buzzes by your head again in nine minutes.
your toes curl as you realize you somehow miss the comfortingly annoying
ritual of daily lunar death, heralded by the pool of dim orange blood
creeping coyly through a crack in a cruelly crumpled curtain.
the secret omnipresent hum of a world crackling into life,
-- swerving down perilous highways to hellish nowhere
pacing silent hallways to who-the-hell-knows-where --
the unnoticeable vibrations of the living
sound all the louder in their absence.
the absolute stillness is disorienting.
nothing
is familiar.
all is strange
all too strange
you feel strange
absence.
void..
.emptiness?
it's well and truly
blank
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. . .
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blank is...
.
it's... blank .
blank... on purpose .
intention behind the blank
blank means something
there's
a reason
here, you
feel it.
a logic
behind
blank
so...
.. .power outage?
.. .. extended nightmare?
.. . . .sudden onset blindness??
no, no that's not it.
something goes here.
you're blanking.
but you are not blank.
fill in the space.
blank. .
..means .
..nothing.
which is waiting
to be filled
this space
appears blank
but it is not truly,
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